Tough day

I took my cat in today to be put to sleep.  I swore I wouldn't cry but of course I did. It was very peaceful  She sedated him and then I held him in my arms until he was all calm.  I held his head as he passed away.  Sometimes I wonder why we have pets.  The vet said it was time cause he was sick and old.  It was still a hard decision for me.  And now I am crying again, damn it!